I'm getting STRONGER !
I'm feeling awesome the past two days. Yesterday I got in 1.5 hrs. total and 3 good miles of walking. I'm learning to ignore my body and listen to my mind telling me to push it !
I'm not eating poorly but certainly not clean as I would like. I still need to go to the grocery store. Today I got on the scale... for what reason I don't know ! I'm used to Low Carb dieting and seeing the scale move daily. I now know that low to no carbs is not good for the body and only hurts you in the long run. I have learned to accept the fact that exercise and eating well will be apart of my life for ever. Being overweight is alot like being a drug addict. I am addicted to food and eating poorly. I can't afford " Cheat Days " because it would cause a downward spiral to hell for my body.
Water...
I'm addicted to caffeine, yes caffeine. I drink coffee all day long. I'm going to improve and start to drink more water. This is a huge problem for me... I don't like water.
PAIN !
I've been in pain since day 2 but it's not the pain of being over weight. It's a healthy pain. My husband suggested I take some pain meds but I declined. The pain that comes with exercise has always scared me to death. I had a real fear of working hard and being sore. I declined the pain meds because I want to feel the pain and get used to the fact that in order to achieve my goal I need to feel the pain. In the long run this pain will be a reminder that I can never go back to my self destructive ways.
Fitness Equipment !
Today the hubby bought me a pair of 3lb. weights to use during my walks. I know that introducing strength training burns more calories than walking alone. I also got a resistance tube to start doing some other exercises. I would love to have a polar watch or a fit bit to monitor my progress but money is tight so I'll have to wait.
Today I looked at workout clothes ! Shopping has always been a pain in my butt so for me to be looking at any clothes is unusual for me. I do want some workout clothes now tho because i'm doing something for myself that's going to be a positive change that will last forever. I want to look cute, as cute as a 300lb. woman can while I workout...LOL !
I can't afford these things now but eventually...
I'm just looking toward the end of my journey. I now I will be a stronger, better, healthier person when I reach my goal.
This journey is bringing out some old feelings and dark times that I need to work thru. I'm really looking into myself and Whoa It's Rough !!!
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